THE PATH OF NO RETURN

THE PATH OF NO RETURN

This year I'll be turning 30 in December and I am becoming a year wiser, I have become more intuitive of my environment. I realise now that if I make a mistake right now at this moment the rest of my life will be ruined.

I accept that I am a work in progress. And I am constantly pushing myself for a better version of myself. I must say that my life is getting better each day. But my bad habits are still in control over me.

I may need more resilience and the strength of a Higher Power or Universe yet I am not worried to be honest although small anxieties creep in and out of my daily routines.

I like to think that I put my best foot forward at the start of the day rather than being a "bum" as my older self would call it.

I was a very troubled individual years before but I am slowly changing for the better by making small improvements like exercise and drinking water.

I being someone who is a person of disability I try my best to show up for work, relationships and family. Notice I did not put friendship as I have become more of a solitude person rather than engaging with toxic people. 

I have no friends and I like it like that. As you grow living alone is one of the many tests the Universe will throw at you. I realize now that the only way is up without coming back down.

How many times will failure knocking at my door because I refused to heed it's advise? I don't know but I know this, that it is finite.

Making a mistake is fine. It is repeating the same mistake twice that is the problem. I admit my social skills needs to be worked on but I will slowly get there.

I usually don't party and live that viva la vida lifestyle instead I preserve myself working on both myself and my goals. Being in my 30's means that time is running out for me and all I can do is learn from my mistakes in my 20's and grow, learn and adapt.