BORN A MISTAKE

BORN A MISTAKE!

Do you feel like you're born a mistake? I was told to my face that once. But to be fair most first borns were. It's sad that we were the first born the level of responsibility is surmount to us guys.

It is with God's grace or the Higher Power or the Universe we move regardless. For someone who has done mistakes in his life I have been slowly been forgiving myself to the point of becoming more self aware.

Also, I'm afraid to bring a child, someone innocent who might or might not have the blessed childhood I had. This keeps me awake at night some times.

In addition to having mental issues like anxiety and depression it's a tunamount factor. 

For me as a "young" person (comic relief) I may need to think about bringing life into this world twice as much. Because life is like a bed rosses, beautiful, but the thorns might be a somewhat problem.

I don't want to regret a life long decision that was made only by a 60 second flare ( comic relief) but yeah we all have to make this decision sooner or later.

Many people are single and choose to remain single or celibate. Nothing new under the sun. I just don't want to drop everything in my life not now and not any time soon.

But if I do bring life into this world it will be coming from compassion and countless planning and thoughtfulness. And when he or she is born there going to say I was born a blessing!