SUICIDE NOTE

I am sitting here contemplating my next suicide attempt. I don't wanna live anymore there are too many unknowns in life. But i do know one thing, is that if I overdose on these pills there is a chance I might not see another sunrise and I am okay with that.

You can consider this my last post i have tried to be compassionate and shrewd all I get is being betrayed by those closest to me.

They say your worst enemy comes from your own household and I agree.
I've had almost 6 suicide attempts and I ask myself were they all "self-inflicted" or influenced by an external stimuli? Are all these chances a sheer stroke of luck that I survive or maybe this will be my next big break. I'm done running around in circles. I'm done chasing my dreams I'm done with everything! Some may ask why I did it and might project the thoughts to themselves . I want you to know you had no part in this.

I have suffered from a chronic mental illness called schizophrenia and I am ready to leave this earth for good. That would be the reason i took matters in my own hands.

But do not fret i am just a nobody like the theory of nothing. My input in this world is miniscule compared to other people.

I wont move any mountains or emotions when im gone. To those who were closest to me, my family, you finally got what you wanted. Congratulations. I hope you will sleep better at night.

Tony.muchoki.MyLife.2025(©)